she holds more than she uses herself

running with little lead balls in the arches of my foot. tucked in my shoes.
i follow and i lead
and i jump when i'm supposed to.

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we are looking for the right red rubies

fly high enough to clear the wire

roll around in paint, pour
it's all the things I want
don't worry
you don't owe me 

anything more

your reactions 

more than me
I don't react at all
just making space
keeping things clear

I'll keep visiting you here

I can't tell you in a dream
that I don't dream of you

a piano

so blood red it let the devil in

shared witness 

shared blessing

i focused intent until it melted

i can ignore the pulling and the bumping

i can stay until every piece is gone

wading

up to your eyes in water
you told me we were running. 

if I hold on too tight, it will stop.
if I let go, it will stop. 
If I keep running, all that can will 

Red - red
Green - red
Yellow - yellow

summer snow

barefoot in snow storm
scrubbing off the shoes
all power is out

I want to live somewhere with small old buildings
New York has plenty of small old buildings

an old teacher gets de ja vu
when I say I want to find a way
to live both places at once
--
you love your new lover
she's quiet and pious
brown haired, and not too much
i stand close to you
while you tell a stranger everything
on the phone
you don't acknowledge me.
I ask when you'll move to
you ask when I'll move to 

probably soon.

music in the basement

sounds i can make
despite the state of my body
despite what you think of me.

it's my set up she's stealing

night time in your home, which is more like a compound

i stay in a glass walled room
a few doors down
dark figures from your past come to haunt me
but i deflect.
i'd say you name out loud
but i don't want to be revealing.

i raise you a more deadly weapon
i am ashamed of those i bare
still ghost threats are not empty