everything is red

kids take off their sneakers, lie on their backs and shoot heroin into the bottoms of their feet



i made sand paintings on the floor of the school's office. it comforted me because your mom was working and i could hear her voice in the background. she would come in and check on me. An outgoing kid came in and asked why i didn't take painting 4, the theme was sound of music. I asked "is it fair to say i didn't know it existed?" I find, instead of painting, I choose to do the most tedious things possible. blessmyheart

we are hanging out with David's friends, but you are you. A blonde comes in and she is josie. You want to put your arm around her but I am in the way. I am mad I am limiting you, but glad we are hip to hip. There is a picture of you and her. she is blonde and you don't like blondes, but you like her. She has a cute face and doesn't remind you of me or anyone else you've been with. She is new

our love hangs like cats legs being held by the underarms.

everyone leaves. you are behind the bar. you have you head down and you hear my sister and you say goodbye michelle, goodbye danielle. I say, oh sorry, I am still here. You say " no that's fine. that's just fine. don't worry it's okay. if you want to stay you can. I wasn't going to see anyone. If you love me, then you can stay if you want." I ask "well do you love me?" you "didn't i just say that?" "no." "i will never love anyone else. Ever. Not after last night. You see...I was with this girl and... she did things to me....I will never forget." You are scared and frantic...I wake up.