i take in a stray
cats half ripped down to their skin then healed over hairless
(he only shows the scarless sides)
we were running from faster felines
car doors don't close
and i'm all over you again
the bottoms of my feet exposed
to the alley of dogs
where you sympathize with a stray girl
who sleeps in a cage at its entrance
to protect them

the locals there are lied to and still calculate travel by foot time
the city is days away

(((i feel like my brain is caving in on itself and none of my thoughts are fertilized enough to grow. barron lands. empty, still. i try and feel for a broken place but it's all just anemia anemia.  woke up with a hard not for her))

We were looking to buy sheer curtains

she stood behind you clear as day when you spoke
despite your denial
and insist my acknowledging her presence would make you
invent an importance for her that didn't already exist
i'd be better off talking you into taking your own life.
you come to me with the weight of her.
still and try and touch me
what gave me the idea a touch means something more


i pick up crystals on the shore line while you're on the other end
one clear
one clear and pink with black at its worn edges
one black at its worn edges
right now the rarest crystal formation is underway
dancers take their place and rub together
it's a dangerous reaction, but you were too lost in the mirrors get away from the shore
i called to you to move
but the crystal formed with you stuck in the middle
you gave me the memory to record like a string of beads
that enter through my palms and bind to the nerves in my backbone
they pulled your skin from your head and replaced it with clear white rocks
all day now you fight maddness. pink foam square blocks and obstacle courses
the authority of the ice usually use this as a form of torture
it's written on my own head, the reason why i can't let you out
if you put yourself there it was destiny, not error
i asked if we could make a deal, maybe
it's been 100 years since we have even tried this sort of magic

last night my car burned and flipped onto its side in front of your house

today it was two bottle of wines, emergency port, and my ancestors on a heart grab nation raid. i breath in steam to calm prepare

last night my car burned and flipped onto its side in front of your house

today it was two bottle of wines, emergency port, and my ancestors on a heart grab nation raid. i breath in steam to calm prepare

i couldn't get my car to brake and tried to rein it in a like a horse
I pulled her over in a peach grove

aphids in the yard, aphids in the pool
they get as big as chickens, but my sister claims they don't age
Aphids stick like slugs to my feet and my butt and swim into my mouth

there are two dolphins in the pool too
who were rescued from being poisoned in captivity.
they fuck compulsively

the ocean spits out bass,
large black fish with yellow spots
large birds bring them up into the air and then hang them from trees to more easily feed on their insides
the coyotes carry them off in biped packs
advertisements for whipped-cream hover above it all in the air on drones
no one else seems to be annoyed by the aphids

i am in a canoe with my family
we see an albino bass
and a runt
back off to sea

i have one hand down my throat and am filming the coral with the other
my vocal chords have been pierced and a chain runs through the hole

i am Lorina of a made up mythology,
a fish caught in ancient times
my ancient cries
(or a contemporary affliction,
in the guise
of truth tradition)

i am supposed to learn to shut up
or else be left alone
(or i am supposed to leave everything i thought i could have and know?)

hit in the face with a feather -- a blade of grass stuck to my skin across my forehead.
i sent you a video of me with a hair caught in my eye
a crow i called to landed to stand on my hand.
a bear who was tamed and friends with dogs hugged me, licked my face and i was not afraid.
like meeting an old friend.
children looked at me to follow and nature gave me the sensitivity of all its undomesticated animals.

an earthquake came and underwater was hot with lava. i sought refuge in the clouds. built your head out of mache and your arms out of burlap felt and straw